When You speak.

I went to church for the first time tonight in a long, long, long time. Nothing really stood out to me as far as the message goes. But there was this one song that got to me. I cried a little bit. My heart has been very hard for the past few months.

When You stand, the tall trees and mountains bow
When You speak, the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen
And I fall to my knees

All these faces come and go.

Dannica moves back in to BIOLA on Sunday. Scott moves back in to Gammy's on Sunday as well. Amanda moves in to CSUDH next Wednesday. Breanna is moving to LA in September to go to Bible school. At least Jacob is home. I'm looking forward to spending more time with him.

I'm so tired of working 6 days a week.

I can't even remember the last time I just sat in my room and read my Bible. I can't remember the last time I went to church. I think I've gotten into the habit of taking on the world, and haven't had any good alone time with God to give it all to Him.

I've been constantly busy for the past few weeks. I just know I'm going to get a really bad cold soon. It always happens.

I want to go back to school, but I don't have time or money to.

"I, I, I, I, I, I..."

Hey God, could you take this one? I'm done trying to figure things out on my own, and I'm overwhelmed.

I complain too much.

Last week (after receiving a $12 check for the previous week from the salon) was my best week yet.


I think God likes to show me what He can do when I'm getting really discouraged. The ups and downs of being in this business are helping me to trust Him more with my finances.

This week. This friggin' week.

Don't get me wrong - The weekend was good. Although on Friday, I got dehydrated and couldn't stay at work. That sucked. I went down to Anaheim and spent time with Scott. And then I stayed at his other Gramma's house, and we went beach hopping the next day. He let me shop. :) He bought me some pretty rings at the silver shop in Newport, and gave me the rest for tattoo money, cause he knew that's what I wanted. He told me he'd been wanting to give me a little shopping spree for all the times I've driven him out to Anaheim, and for all the times he's been a butthead to me. He can be a little frustrating sometimes, but I love him. :)

Sunday and Monday were spent in Vegas with Jacob, Benjamin, and Johnny. To be honest, Vegas sucks as a whole, but I didn't have enough time to go and see the better parts of it. We saw Inception on Sunday, and just kinda hung out and waited until it was time to go see MxPx. They were freaking amazing. I'm sad that Yuri is leaving though. :(


But anyways. This friggin' week. It's like the economy is getting even worse, cause NOBODY wants to come and get their hair done. I'm trying not to panic about money, but it's hard with weeks like this.

God will provide. Jehovah Jireh.

I hate going 6 days without seeing Scott. It makes slow work weeks go by even slower. It almost seems like at the end of the 6 days without him, I forget what he looks like.

For Nothing.

Ever feel like you give your all to something or someone, and when it comes to reaping the benefits of that something, or when that someone wants to do something for you, it's mediocre?

That was a really long, run-on sentence. I feel that way now, but I just realized...





...I'm pretty sure that's how God feels about me right now.

I should be doing more of this:
(Thanks to Jennifer for reminding me of this song).

Yes, it would be okay.

One hour, thirteen minutes, and seventeen seconds.

After a year and three months, things have gotten quite comfortable with Scott and I. But having phone conversations of that length once in a while gives me flashbacks to when we first started dating. Kinda keeps the romance alive, I'd say. :)

I really love him, and am blessed to have him. <3

blank mind.

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
-Unknown


"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. "
-Franklin D. Roosevelt

"If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down. "
-Mary Pickford

"When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."
-Unknown

"A bend in the road is not the end of the road... unless you fail to make the turn. "
-Unknown

Good advice.

Here's to optimism.

There's a good chance that I used very poor grammar/spelling in this post.

The salon business seems to be moving along pretty well. At least the past couple weeks. I had two clients today, and then got a call in from a girl whom I've done her hair before. I don't currently have anything for Thursday or Friday, but I'm hoping. Maybe I'll do some Facebook specials or something.

My hair needs to grow about 8 inches, and then I will be happy. Well. I will also be happy when I get my arm/leg tattoos started/finished.

I have lots of laundry to do. I suppose I shall go do that.

I really like this song for some odd reason.




[[EDIT]]

I've finally tried out Grooveshark, and I love it.

I also love this song:



Mostly the lyric "Give me a chance to shine, and I'm gonna blind the world." I need to remember that when I think about why I got into doing hair. God gave me a talent that I need to use properly. In other words...

Gianna Jessen.

I was going to try to muster up something to say about my day with this entry. But I just watched these videos, and I am speechless. This woman is amazing.



Watch part two as well.

Hello, Blogspot.

I'm giving this a shot. I've been on LiveJournal for a while, and nobody seems to use it anymore.

I would also like to add that today, Scott and I have been together for 1 and 1/4 years. I'm pretty stoked on that. I think I'll keep him. <3

Also, also: I think it is literally impossible for me to go to sleep early.